A Quarrel
Anakin was not quite
sure how he had got home. Or what used to be ‘home’
before Shura had left. He cringed and slammed his fist on the kitchen
table. – What was he doing in the kitchen?
He slumped down on a chair rubbing his face. Hell. What a night! Why
did he have to meet Shura, meet her when he was feeling grotty and
pissed off anyway. How could they ever have ended up shouting at each
other like that. Damn. He opened the bottle of Kahy standing in front
of him, not even wondering how it had ended up there. No glass. He took
a mouthful of Kahy and swallowed. He probably should not drink more
alcohol, he was drunk enough. No, either he was too drunk or not drunk
enough. He would only be drunk enough when he passed out. His stomach
recoiled as he drank a couple of large gulps. Given his present
condition he would probably throw up before he reached the stage of
sweet oblivion. Not that it really mattered. Nothing mattered any more.
Shura. Damn. She had been scared, scared of him. And all because of his
stupid Jedi powers. Why had he stopped the bloody train? Perhaps it had
been for the best, he had been so angry he did not know whether in the
end he would have hurt her. Hurt her and make Obi Wan’s
prediction come true.
Obi Wan. It was all his fault. The stupid bastard.
How could he do that. Poisoning Shura’s mind against him.
Telling her all the silly lies and exaggerations about the Dark
Side of the Force, no doubt. Dark Side-Shit. Making Shura
afraid. – Obi Wan told her to leave!
Downing another gulp of Kahy Anakin got back onto his feet. Well, Obi
Wan would not get away with this. He might think he had the right to
ruin his pupils’ lives but he, Anakin, would stop this. Obi
Wan who said he knew the difference between right and wrong, who was
such a good person. Damn him! And just like that he
made Shura leave, as if he had a right to judge whether Anakin deserved
her or not. Anakin stumbled over the leg of an upturned chair. Obi Wan,
master of his pupils’ fates. Not for much longer. Where were
his stupid keys?
“Fuck, stupid idiot.”
Obi Wan and his tales of how this dark side would take over your life.
How this was possible he had never cared to explain, or had been able
to explain more likely.
“Forever it will dominate your destiny. Like hell.”
Like some … wicked witch who would come and live inside his
head? Forever, as if anything would last forever. In the end all was
ashes. Anakin pulled open some drawers. The keys had to be somewhere.
Instead he found his light-saber.
Shit. He switched the blade on, staring at the blue light humming
gently in the dark of the living room. He had been proud of this once,
Obi Wan had commended him on his work. The weapon of a Jedi. The noble
warriors who only used it in defense. It was deadly nevertheless. Just
ask Vigee.
He raised the light-saber in a mock salute and swung it in a wide arch
around him, cutting neatly and effortlessly through the back of one
chair and the top of the table. Whatever Obi Wan said, Anakin was still
a Jedi. “A dark Jedi?”
Switching the light-saber off he hooked it to his belt. He was looking
for the keys. With a thought he flicked the light on, and was
momentarily blinded by the brightness flooding the room.
There they were, right in front of him, on the chair without a back.
Anakin picked the keys up and shoved them into the pocket of his
trousers. Patting the bulging pocket he returned to the kitchen. He
just hoped the damned city-wing was working. That would be stupid, if
he could not reach Obi Wan’s place because his fucking c-wing
had broken down. He stared blankly around, wondering why he had gone to
the kitchen.
There had been something. If he could just remember.
He drank the last of the Kahy and threw the bottle through the window.
Glass splinters flew through the kitchen. Good. Obi Wan did not
understand, but breaking things did give enormous satisfaction when one
was in a bad mood.
Anakin pressed his fist against his forehead. How could Shura do this!
Hell. How could she just leave without saying goodbye just because Obi
Wan told her some stupid lies? How could she leave without talking with
him first? Because she could not bear it any longer, as she had said?
But why, why had she not talked to him, told him
what bothered her. Not all the vague things she had said in the shuttle
train. What was so wrong with him? He was not that scary, was he? Even
the young man in the shuttle had not thought so. They had had a nice
conversation after Shura had left.
Sliding with his back along the wall he sat down on the floor, face
buried in his hands. Why had she left? If only he could die now. Have
it over with. If only he could lose himself completely in black
desperation, wail like a lost child, but he could not.
Not even drunk as he was. Not even now could he stop himself from
envisioning what other people would think if they saw him now. What a
pathetic creature, all sorry for himself. – But what else
could he do?
When he dropped his hands to the floor, one of the glass splinters
scattered everywhere embedded itself in the back of his right hand.
Damn. Blood started to trickle and then to flow when he pulled the
small shard free. It had to be his right hand. With a sign he regained
his feet and stumbled to the sink. He should disinfect this somehow,
after all he would not want to have his hand fall off. Alcohol would
probably do the job. Good thing he had so much of the stuff inside.
This should help.
He found a small bottle of rum in one of the cupboards and after
allowing himself a swig poured it over the cut. That hurt! Which was
probably a good sign. Thanks to Shura’s tidiness he had not
problem finding a sticking plaster – she had always insisted
of keeping some in the kitchen.
“Stupid.”
Now. He was going to pay Obi Wan a visit, wasn’t he. He had
his keys, his light-saber and his blaster. All set and ready to go.
Holding the bottle of rum in his injured hand he left the apartment.
The hall was empty and dark. No chance of bumping into any of his
neighbours, they would be all abed now as good citizens should. Obi Wan
would be sleeping the sleep of the just as well, not knowing that
vengeance was coming his way. The lift was still there, not having been
in use since Anakin had returned home. He remembered the young man
asking him, whether he would be alright when they had parted at the
lift. Right, he had accompanied Anakin home after their short stop at
the local bar. Or had it been so short? Anakin remembered he had drunk
two pints of ale with the young man from the shuttle-train. They had
had a good rant about women and life; hell he had not had such a good
rant since the last time he had been out with the Senator. Senator Diam
Palpatine who Shura disapproved of; who Obi Wan disapproved of because
he criticised the Jedi.
The lift reached the roof of the building and Anakin stepped out into
the cool night. C-wings and other ships were parked in neat rows on the
roof. Their own was on the edge of the roof. Anakin turned on the
internal lights as he walked over, opening the door to the cockpit from
the distance.
Was it all about this? About he and Diam having the same objections
about the Order? Was this the reason Obi Wan had persuaded Shura to
leave? Anakin climbed into the c-wing slamming the door shut.
“Jedi. Ha.”
Shura had said she couldn’t trust him because he was a Jedi
so why was she opposed to his and Palpatine’s plans to
curtail the Order’s influence on the government and in the
military? Because Obi Wan had told her that.
Anakin fumbled the key into the lock and pressed the ignition. For a
few seconds in which Anakin swore quietly nothing happened, then the
engine started to hum. Hitting the acceleration he let the c-wing jump
vertically into the air. Shura hated it when he did this. And of course
he had not repeated this performance when she was aboard after she had
muttered something about boys showing off. Not that anybody would see
him now in the dark. He switched the headlights on.
The city was gliding past, a web of lights spreading out under him. In
the distance darkness indicated the edge of the settlement. Only a few
other ships were flying over the city, hardly any traffic at all. Hell,
what was the time? The clock in the c-wing illuminated briefly showing
that it was well past midnight, nearly half one. Damn. He had left the
pub with Lee at ten. Swerving wildly he avoided a slower c-wing
trundling along over the main street. What were they doing?
Sightseeing? After cutting across a lower building he could see his
destination appearing.
The house’s terraces were built against the slow slope of a
hill giving each level its own wide garden on top of the lower level.
The landing platform was at the edge of the building, where the highest
floor was built to the edge of the cliff which formed the other side of
the hill. Those were the most exclusive apartments in the city, where
the rich and the famous were living. Obi Wan did not own one of those,
but his flat on the second top floor did show his position as a Jedi
master to the world.
The c-wing skidded across the roof when Anakin set it down.
“Oops.” He had been going faster than he thought.
Turning the c-wing around he backed it into the gap between a small
ferrier and a posh c-wing.
Up here the wind was quite chilling. Anakin wondered briefly what
happened to all these ships when there was a real storm blowing.
Shivering he took a last drink of rum and threw the bottle over the
edge of the platform into the night. Now it was time to confront his
nemesis. The lift took him to the next lower level. The corridor was as
empty as the one in Anakin’s house, the rich and famous were
sleeping as well. There. He sighed at the closed door wondering what he
should do once Obi Wan had been roused from his sleep and opened the
door. ‘’Scuse me, I just wanted to tell you how I
detest you messing up my marriage. Please refrain from doing so in the
future.’ Yeah, great words. He should not worry, things would
take care of themselves.
Anakin could feel Obi Wan’s presence in the aparment, muted
as he was indeed sleeping soundly. Not for very much longer!
Anakin pulled his blaster and blew the lock away. He smiled satisfied
at the smoldering hole in the door. Sometimes a good old-fashioned
blaster was still the best of all weapons. Obi Wan did not sleep any
more. In the next apartment a woman had roused from sleep as well,
listening intently now to what was going on. Anakin sent her back to
sleep. He did not want to be disturbed by neighbours – or
security called in to arrest a burglar. He kicked the door open and
stepped into the flat. The door, pushed by his thoughts, slammed shut
behind him. A few sleepers stirred but none woke up.
Obi Wan was standing in the living room when Anakin entered it, dressed
in his usual gown – no, this was a
dressing gown. Not that it made any difference. In his right hand he
held his deactivated light-saber. He was standing sideways to the door,
feet slightly apart, one at a right angle to the other; a defensive
position. He expected to be attacked.
“Ts, ts. My master, I thought fear was one of the paths
leading to the dark side.” Anakin walked to the hard sofa and
sat down on it.
“What do you want?” Obi Wan turned to face Anakin,
but his light-saber was still in his hand, his finger only millimeters
from the switch.
Anakin put the blaster on the table in front of him, next to the empty
mug which would probably have held Obi Wan’s nightcap of
herbal tea. He patted the barrel. “I wont shoot
you.”
“What do you want?”
“An explanation?”
“About what?”
“Guess.” Anakin stared at Obi Wan, taking in his
former master’s gaunt face surrounded by thinning and graying
hair, the short beard and those doe eyes. How this man had ever managed
to inspire respect in Anakin was now beyond him. He was such a pathetic
creature. Pathetic but dangerous. He had persuaded Shura to leave.
Somehow he had been so persuasive that Shura had believed him.
Obi Wan looked startled. “I don’t know.”
Anakin’s hand slammed on the table, making the blaster and
the mug jump. “Don’t give me that shit.”
Obi Wan’s finger had twitched but he was still only holding
on to his light-saber.
“I met Shura today.”
“Oh.”
“Oh indeed.” Anakin slipped his fingers through the
handle of the mug, letting the smooth surface rest against his hand.
Obi Wan stepped from one foot on the other. “How is
she?” was all he finally said.
The mug made a nice bang when it hit the table. Obi Wan jumped.
“I don’t know. – I did not get round to
asking her. We were too busy shouting at each other.”
Obi Wan continued to stare silently at Anakin.
“It was quite an interesting little shouting match. Shura
told me a few things you probably would not like me to hear.”
“I did not say anything …”
Bang! The sound was duller now and when Anakin slammed the mug on the
table again it broke into pieces.
Obi Wan jumped again. Then, his voice sounding strained, he asked
again. “What do you want?”
“An explanation.”
“About what?”
Anakin jumped off the sofa and was through the room before Obi Wan had
time to react. Grabbing him by the lapels of his gown he pushed the
older man against the wall. He stared down into Obi Wan’s
eyes, ignoring the humming sound of the now activated light-saber in
Obi Wan’s hand?
“I want to know whether you have an explanation for why you
told my wife to leave me. Tell me, Obi Wan Kenobi, do you have a reason
for why you ruined my life? Or did you just do it to spite
me.”
“Let go.”
Anakin could feel Obi Wan’s thoughts flickering through his
brain trying to make him loosen his grip. Well, he could do the same.
With as much strength as he could muster he sent the order to drop his
light-saber into former master’s mind. Obi Wan resisted, not
surprisingly. But his grip on the light-saber loosened, the blade
started quivering.
“Stop that! You’re hurting me.
” Obi Wan’s voice was whining.
Anakin grinned at Obi Wan. Like hell he would. “Make
me.”
Panic flooded Obi Wan so much that Anakin could sense it too, then
something hit him, threw him away from Obi Wan, just as Anakin had
pushed Shura away earlier. He knocked one of the chairs in the room
over, falling on the floor over its legs. For a moment he stared at the
ceiling then he started to laugh. His great master, Obi Wan the holy
man, had struck out at him.
“Beware the dark side of the force.” He sat up.
“Anger and agression, the dark side they are.”
Obi Wan was still standing against the wall, light-saber humming in his
hand. Finally he switched it off and shoved the handle into the pocket
of his gown. He looked thoroughly shaken but Anakin was not in the mood
to pity him. With a sigh Obi Wan stepped to the low table and sat down
on it.
“Do you still need an explanation after this little
demonstration of yours.” He did not look at Anakin but
started to play with the pieces of the mug.
That took some time to sink in. Anakin clambered back to his feet.
“What do you mean? You told my wife to leave me because I
attacked you? Did you have a vision about this and wanted it to come
true, or what?”
Obi Wan looked at him confused. “Do you really think
that?”
“Why can’t you give a clear answer? Dammit, you
behave as if you were a fucking oracle. I think I can get your drift.
But that still doesn’t give you the right to mess up my
marriage.”
“You are a dangerous man. Anger and hate are the path
…”
“My marriage is still none of your business.”
“Shura came to me and asked me, that makes it my
business.”
Anakin felt as if somebody had wipped the floor from beneath him. This
could not be true. Shura asking Obi Wan of all people…
“Why did she come to you and not to me?” he yelled.
Why had she not talked to him? Anakin felt a lump rise in his throat.
He wished he could simply let go and cry.
“Anakin, she’s afraid of you,” Obi Wan
said.
“Why?”
“How could she not be?” Obi Wan asked.
“She sses you using the Force to hurt people. To kill. How
long will it be beofre you use the Force against her?”
For a moment Anakin was too shocked to reply. Use his abilities to hurt
Shura? Did she really think he would ever, ever hurt her?
“I wouldn’t hurt her. Ever. She knows
that,” he protested feebly.
Obi Wan looked at him with an expression on his face, as if he had to
tell a child that it had failed a class. He seemed to feel sorry for
Anakin, and that was the last thing Anakin wanted, Obi Wan’s
pity.
“Does she?” Obi Wan asked, “How? Do you
know it? Without any question?”
But there was something else in Obi Wan’s expression,
something else he was feeling. Anakin could sense that.
“Yes, I know,” Anakin answered Obi Wan’s
question. Somehow Anakin had the impression that there was another
reason behind Obi Wan’s action that just his worry for
Shura’s safety. Something that had nothing to do with what
Shura thought of Anakin’s use of the Force and everything
with Obi Wan’s disappointment in his pupil, Obi
Wan’s worries about his own teaching abilities.
“You’re lying,” he said, “This
isn’t about me, is it? It’s you. You still
can’t forgive me for walking out on your precious
school.”
“That’s not it,” Obi Wan contered all to
quickly.
“Do you know, it isn’t,” Anakin
continued, “Without any question?” He saw Obi Wan
flinch back from his words. “I spoiled your dream,
didn’t I? You can’t be the great Jedi teacher as
long as I’m around to remind people that sometimes your
pupils leave. If I’m doing well, it proves you can be wrong.
You don’t have all the answers.”
“I never said…,”Obi Wan began, but
Anakin cut him short, “But if my life gets ruined, you can
say it’s all because of the Dark Side, and
everybody’ll think you’re perfect again.”
Obi Wan backed off from him. “Anakin, please,
you’ve had to much to drink. Just go home,” he
pleaded.
“Did I prove that you can’t teach? Is this your
revenge?”
“No!” Obi Wan shouted, shocked that he was accused
of wanting revenge. “Not revenge. I just thought it would be
safer if Shura left. Safer for both of you."
“It is certainly not safer for you.” Now it was the
light-saber in Annake’s hand that was humming. He raised it
in a salute while taking another step towards Obi Wan. His former
teacher pulled his hands out of the pockets of his gown, lifting them,
palms open. “Anakin. You don’t want to do this.
You’re drunk.”
Anakin lowered the point of his light-saber. “So
what.”
Obi Wan swallowed. “Anakin, there is still time. If you
attack me now, your fate will be on the dark side of the force forever.
Now is your last chance to return.”
A strange calm replaced the fury in Anakin. Now that he had made the
choice to kill his former teacher the future seemed so much easier.
“Now you tell me. Now, when it’s
too late. You have failed.”
He raised his light-saber and struck at Obi Wan, not caring that he was
about to kill an unarmed man. But Obi Wan was not unarmed and instead
of cutting through his middle, Anakin’s light-saber hit
against Obi Wan’s. The blades, slightly different shades of
blue, fizzled and sparks flew. Twisting his hand around, Anakin tried
to get past Obi Wan’s light-saber but his former master
imitated his movements, pulling his own weapon free, struck upwards at
Anakin’s face. Damn he was fast. Anakin had just enough time
to bring his own light-saber up, both blade sputtering so close to his
face he was nearly blinded by their light.
“You cannot defeat me.” Obi Wan’s smug
voice kindled the fury in Anakin again. “We will
see.” Taking a sudden step backward he disengaged his
light-saber and struck at Obi Wan again. He might be fast, but sure as
hell, he was neither as strong as Anakin nor had he as much stamina.
The blades hit against each other again and again, each unsuccessful
strike stirring Anakin’s anger. Obi Wan seemed completely
calm now, he was only defending his life, as he no doubt had convinced
himself. Ha, he needed no convincing. Missing Obi Wan’s
shoulder by a hair’s breadth Anakin’s light-saber
cut instead through the top half of a antique chest of drawers made of
slithi bones. This stupid thing was an heirloom from Obi
Wan’s great-grandmother or something and he was proud of it.
Good. Anakin whipped around, savouring the expression of horror on Obi
Wan’s face.
He was so shocked he hesitated a moment and nearly, nearly
Anakin’s light-saber would have cut through Obi Wan as well.
Unfortunately, his former master collected his thoughts quickly enough
to bring up his own blade. His next strike just missed
Anakin’s head, it had been close enough to singe some of his
hair.
“Are you going to kill me?”
Obi Wan’s next strike hit the table, cutting it in half, it
collapsed with much rattling on the floor. He did not, however, answer
Anakin’s question. Instead he spun around, striking again. He
would. And he would feel justified. They glared at each other over the
glowing light-sabers.
The fight went on. For now, both remained silent and the only soud
filling the room was their increasingly loud breathing and the static,
frizzling noise of the clashing lightsabers. A pair of chairs fell over
as Anakin’s light-saber, aiming at Obi Wan’s legs,
cut theirs off instead. For ages, it seemed, their light-sabers struck
against each other, sputtering sparks as they did.
Anakin felt light-headed, his vision was blurred occasionally and he
had to concentrate to keep from stumbling over the bits of broken
furniture now littering the floor. Perhaps he should have sobered up
before coming here. But, fuck it, Obi Wan deserved to be cut to pieces.
What if he could not overcome Obi Wan? He had been his teacher after
all. But then, if he was right about the dark side, Anakin would win as
he was willing to let his anger rule him. He would kill this stupid
man, he would take revenge for this man ruining his life.
Seizing hold with his mind of a fat book lying on the sofa he had sat
on earlier he threw it at Obi Wan, trying to hit him while his
attention was diverted but his former master simply dodged the flying
book, stabbing at Anakin’s middle. Anakin slipped as he
stepped aside. Gods, he was drunk. Less drunk than earlier because now
he realised how the alcohol slowed him down.
Perhaps if he could make Obi Wan really angry, he would make a mistake,
give Anakin a chance to get through his defences.
“I think, my master, that you are only
afraid that people might find out that you are human after all. That
you might fail, that your teaching abilities are not as grand as you
want them to believe.”
A muscle twitched in Obi Wan’s face. His lightsaber severed
the foot of a elaborate floor lamp which crashed to the floor. Anakin
sent the shivers of the glass lampshade into the air, a cloud of sharp
particels, sending them straight for Obi Wan’s face.
Anakin knew he was on the right track.
“Maybe the only reason why you insist being a Jedi is the
greatest thing in history is that you did not find another place where
you belong. That you need to feel suprior to the rest of the world in
this respect because you failed to have any sort of social
life.”
Obi Wan had to turn around, shielding his face with his gown. He threw
a huge plate which once had been sitting on the now dissected side
table at Anakin. It had been a present from a random government, an
ugly thing, but Obi Wan had been proud of it. He must be getting angry
when he threw whatever he touched with his force first.
Anakin cut the plate in two.
“Perhaps,” Anakin heard himself saying.
“Perhaps you were just jealous. Jealous that I have found a
woman that can bear to live with me, and you haven't.”
And Obi Wan was angry. He turned around, his face was so distorted it
was hardly recognizable. The aspect was so strange that Anakin
involuntarily took a step back, nearly saying: I didn’t mean
it. But his anger was stronger than his surprise. He did not care what
happened now.
Obi Wan next stroke missed Anakin widely, hitting the screen dividing
the living room from the kitchen instead. Anakin stepped aside to get a
better aim at his target. Only the fact that he stumbled over the edge
of the upturned table prevented him from killing Obi Wan, or hitting
him at least.
A strange wrenching noise emerged from behind Anakin. A dark, huge
shape came flying from the kitchen and for a second Anakin felt
transferred into a comic holo-show when he realised that the object
racing towards him was Obi Wan’s refrigerator, torn loose by
its owner and with the cable and connections trailing behind it like a
weird tail.
Without thinking Anakin threw himself on the floor, under the flying
fridge, grabbing at it with his force and giving it a further push
towards Obi Wan. Somewhere in his mind he reasoned that a fridge was
too large an object to be dealt with with a lightsaber, that was why
Obi Wan had torn it loose. Now Obi Wan had to reel back to let the
monstrosity fly past him. Its momentum carried the fridge through the
large window and it disappeared outside.
Anakin, scrambling back onto his feet, had a strange vision of a
passerby being killed by the fridge plummeting down from the window,
never knowing what hit him. Obi Wan’s next stroke nearly hit
him, reminding him to concentrate on the fight. Still the scene had
sent Anakin into a near hysteric fit of laughter, throwing with fridges
was definitely not the style of a noble Jedi knight.
“So there is a human under your sanctity after all! A human
who is occasionally ruled by hormones.”
Obi Wan’s next strike sent sparks of pain up
Anakin’s arm. His former master was angry now, hell. But he
did not seem to lose his concentration, his aim. It just made him
strike harder, now he was really trying to kill Anakin. Up to now, he
still had played the noble Jedi, only defending himself.
Anakin heard his own panting as his light-saber took blow after blow.
He had not time or breath to bait his old master anymore –
and he doubted that it had been a good idea in the first place. Coming
here had not been a good idea. Each stroke made him back off a bit,
each blow let his fingers, his arms go more numb. He could see how this
would end, the light-saber would slip from his fingers and the next
stroke would split him as he had split the table.
These were not his thoughts! They were Obi Wan’s! He did not
merely leak thoughts, he was broadcasting them, and he did not care if
Anakin should pick them up, because Anakin would be dead anyway. He did
not care if Anakin knew that he had been right, that Obi Wan had wanted
his pupil’s wife. That he was attracted to Shura. Shame on
his own weakness filled Obi Wan, merging with his anger, making it even
fiercer, wilder. He would never have her.
Anakin was stunned with disbelief. He had never thought that this might
actually be true. He could not believe that his marriage had been
ruined by petty jealousy. However absurd Obi Wan’s ideas
about the dark side and all of that had been, Anakin had always
believed that Obi Wan did believe in them, and had told Shura to leave,
because he was concerned. Not this! Not just because he had wanted to
sleep with her, because he was envious and wanted to make his pupils
life as miserable and lonely as his own.
Obi Wan screamed in fury, his light-saber cutting a flashing arc
through the air, cutting through Anakin’s wrist and deep into
the floor.
As if in slow-motion Anakin saw his hand being severed from his body,
falling on the floor. His light-saber slipped from the now life-less
fingers, a thin stream of blood gushing out of the hand.
His own scream mingled with Obi Wan’s as he fell down on his
knees. Blood was pulsing out of his wrist. Obi Wan seemed to loom over
him like a vengeful god, his light-saber raised high above his head to
finish what he started, to wipe out all knowledge of his own shame.
Anakin jumped up, throwing himself against Obi Wan, diving under the
descending light-saber, his shoulder and the stump of his right arm
hitting against Obi Wan’s chest, hurling him backwards.
The pain flashing through his arm nearly made him pass out, but somehow
he managed to remain on his feet, while Obi Wan toppled over the
upturned chair, falling heavily on his back. But he had regained his
feet before Anakin had time to do anything. The light-saber rose again,
once more aimed at finally quenching Anakin’s life. His own
scream ringing in his ears Anakin turned and ran.
The small entrance room was empty but the door was closed. Then it
burst into a thousand pieces spraying Anakin with splinters. The lift!
Anakin prayed that the lift would be still there. He could hear Obi Wan
behind him, running after him. Stairs, he would use the stairs. Vaguely
he noticed somebody staring at him then he ran through the open door
and onto the staircase. Cradling his wrist against his chest, he could
feel the blood soaking his shirt. He had to get away, away from this
madman, whose panting he could hear behind, following him, gaining on
him.
The wind on the roof was howling like a wild animal. Anakin lowered his
head and with a desperate cry ran across the landing platform to where
his c-wing was standing. He could feel Obi Wan’s fury behind
him, he could feel his thoughts, wanting him to stop. Every moment
Anakin expected the to feel the final, all finishing stroke of Obi
Wan’s light-saber.
The door of the c-wing burst open into his face, nearly knocking him
over. He jumped onto the pilot’s seat, frantically searching
for the key in his pockets. But all of them were flat, empty.
He could see Obi Wan running across the roof, his light-saber still
glowing in his hand, only a few steps behind him now. In the door to
the roof, somebody was standing, outlined against the lights of the
stairs. The keys! Anakin stared desperately at the lock and there! He
had not taken them out!
Irrationally he was relieved that nobody had stolen the c-wing while he
was away. He pressed the ignition, awkwardly, with his left hand,
slammed the acceleration forward and released the break.
The c-wing lurched than jumped into the air, just escaping Obi
Wan’s outstretched hand. Anakin could see the wild expression
on his former master’s face, the furious scream erupting from
him as he realized that Anakin would get away.
Anakin slumped forward, his head resting on the dash board. He had made
it. He had escaped. Blood was pooling around his feet, he should try to
stop it, otherwise he would pass out. He stared at his wrist, curiously
aware that it did not hurt. The blood pouring out of the stump slowed
to a trickle, then stopped.
The c-wing was soaring vertically into the air. It seemed to be bound
to hit the stars which glittered coldly in the sky. For a moment Anakin
just stared up through the roof-panel of the c-wing admiring the stars.
Beautiful. And he spent so much time among them he hardly ever noticed
them anymore. But he had to get home, get somebody to help him do
something about his hand. Shura could take him to the hospital.
He gripped the steering rod awkwardly with his left hand, remembering
Shura’s usual complaints about how nobody ever considered
left-handed people when constructing ships. He cautiously tried to ease
the thing forward, lowering the nose of the c-wing back towards the
city. Pushing against the ‘resistance’ preventing
accidental movements. All he wanted to do was go home and hide, cuddle
against Shura and tell her what happened. But she was not there. She
had left. She was gone.
Despair flooded over him, drowning out any other emotion, even that of
relief at having escaped the mad man, Obi Wan. He had lost her. For now
and for ever. She would not be there to take care of him or even shout
at him for being such an idiot and having his hand chopped off
– once should have been enough for
anybody. Tears streamed down his face, blurring his vision. Where was
he to go to now? And all because Obi Wan had been jealous, and Shura
had not trusted him, but had believed all the o-so-well-meaning lies of
Obi Wan. Why, why?
The steering rod finally slipped forward, the c-wing dipped down and
nose-dived towards the city. Anakin fell forward against the controls,
the acceleration, he had forgotten how fast he was going. “Fuck!”
Pushing himself back onto his seat, he pulled the acceleration back to
him, but the ship did not stop. By now it was in free fall. He had to
stop it, somehow. Brake, turn around, reverse. Something!
Pushing the shift into reverse with his left foot he hit the brake with
his right. But the engine just howled angrily, loud enough to drown out
the whistling of the air as the ship plummeted down. He could see the
security over-ride light flashing in front of him. This was not his
ship, he had not disabled the stupid security program because they had
only rented the c-wing.
“Fuck! Damn.”
He pressed down the brake again, swearing as his foot glided off, his
boot slippery with blood. His hand missed the steering rod, and as he
nearly fell off his seat again, the stump of his right hand hit against
the console, pain flushing over him. His left hand was holding his
right arm, not the steering rod. He had to move.
But when he finally managed to disengage his fingers he was shaking so
hard he could not make it close around the steering rod. His foot found
the brake again and he slammed it down as hard as he could, shifting
into the smallest gear to slow down. But the ship did not obey, lights
blinked frantically around him. Was he imagining things or was there a
waft of smoke, coming from the engine behind?
No matter now. When his fingers finally clutched the steering rod and
he tried to pull the ship up again, the steering refused to move.
Anakin stared out of the window, there was a building right in front of
him. He was going to crash. His ship would smash through the walls and
he would be dead. He did not care anymore. All of a sudden, he even
felt relieved that all would be over, that he would not have to think
anymore or feel despair or anything. Perhaps Shura would cry at his
funeral. She’d look splendid in mourning. The thought made
him smile. He could imagine her so well standing alone and tall among
the crowd. That would be a nice thought to die with.
The building raced towards him, square and solid, his left hand was
still gripping the steering rod, trying as if of its own will to avoid
the unavoidable, and then his ship crashed into the wall. Everything
around him turned into a wild chaos of sound and heat and pain. He
could not distinguish any more what he heard, or felt or saw. Pain
seared through his body and he knew that he was going to die.
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